I cried my eyes out Monday night and since I have been fine sending Blake to school. His first day was only a half day and parents got to go with. I was able to see some of the activities he would be doing each week. I think this helped me calm down a little. It was fun to watch him participate in music or dancing activities. At one point he kept grabbing my hand while we were dancing. Then he would let go as I saw him looking around and noticing that the other kids weren't holding their moms hands. Then he would forget and grab my hand, and then realize and let go again. Sad.
I have loved taking him to story time, museums, parks, etc. and watching him experience and learn. And I realized that he is going to be loving and learning so much that I won't be able to watch him enjoy it. I will be volunteering though!
After the first full day, when I picked him up he had a tired smile on his face and said "Mom" with a voice like it had been a long day. Today he told me about 3 little boys that he made friends with and how they played tag at recess. I saw one of these new friends talking with him after school and said "Bye Blake. I will see you tomorrow ok?" Blake told me how he hasn't gotten in trouble at all. No major melt downs at night so far either. He wakes up at 7am chatty and ready to go for another day. I'm so glad that he is loving it.